I remember my first day of college vividly. That’s because I started the day after I graduated high school. Literally. Back then, in order to stay on my moms insurance, I had to be in school. That meant not having a summer and starting summer school immediately. I honestly had no clear goal in mind at the time which was probably my biggest mistake. So instead of taking general education courses and figuring out my plan later, I ended up just diving head first into Business courses. My mom majored in it, so could I. Wrong.
Within the first week I was already mega stressed out. I am not or never have been good with numbers or anything of the sort so doing business wasn’t my thing. I dropped out of classes immediately and just stuck with the very few general ed courses I had. I barely scraped by and ended up messing up my GPA in the school district pretty quickly. By the time Fall came, I dropped out completely in favor of working full time. Full time meant my own insurance and benefits so I was off the hook.
That summer was the last summer I had attended college for a while.
Much like my mom, I wasn’t really sure if school was for me at that age. I had grand schemes of just working cool jobs and getting my own apartment at the age of 18 and hoping I wouldn’t want a job so badly that required me to have a college degree. I mean, at that time most jobs really just wanted you to have graduated high school so I was set.
Fast forward to around 2010 when I had been living on my own for about two years and got out of a pretty rough relationship and was forced to move back in with my mom. My mom told me I needed to either get a job, or go back to college. Unfortunately, the job that I had before I moved out of state lied to me and I was not able to go back to my position like they had promised me and finding a job was incredibly hard. So I went back to school.
This time, I had a bit longer to figure out what I wanted to do. I opted to go to community college again and signed up to get a graphic design degree. I spent two years working my butt off and it was actually something I really enjoyed doing. I had a pretty decent small business designing graphics and various things for local companies, radio stations and people overseas and I hadn’t even graduated yet. I finally felt like I found something I was good at. I thought I would want to do that for the rest of my life. And then I graduated.
I had a job working at a video store and I wanted to keep doing graphic design but theeeen I didn’t want to anymore. So I let my degree go to waste and worked at a crappy video store for almost a year before quitting and working at crappy museum for almost another year.
While I was at my museum job, I actually registered again for culinary classes with an emphasis in baking and pastry. I really wanted to bake. So much so that I jumped the gun and started a baking business that I had for..you guessed it..a year. I had this idea that I was going to own a nerdy bakery and be the coolest hang out spot in the Bay Area.
I ended up dropping out of classes before I could get any kind of degree in it so I like to say that I have an almost degree in baking. Because I dropped out when I was ALMOST done.
So here I am, the day before the day before I start college…AGAIN. Going to school..AGAIN to try to get yet ANOTHER degree. Emphasis on try here. In the middle of my later college years I had always wanted to try my hand at the fashion design and merchandising classes. I am not into fashion at all, I just wanted to try something new. Then I got into cosplaying and my love for sewing and creating skyrocketed. But no matter what, whenever I tried to get ballsy and apply for the classes they were already full. Earlier this year I was FINALLY able to snag one of the coveted spots in all of the first semester courses.
This is at yet another community college but the program gets amazing accolades as being just like a fashion school but way cheaper and more 1 on 1 with teachers.
Needless to say, I am excited. Will I complete the program? Who knows! I honestly am just one of those people who likes to roll with any idea I have. If I want to try something new and I know I can learn it, I will apply for the classes and give it a try. I already have a degree I could technically fall back on if I want to, so I am trying not to stress myself out with this one. I am doing it for fun..and to hopefully be able to get better at a hobby and craft I know I am moderately okay at haha
If you are a college drop out or have no idea which direction you wanna go, don’t worry. You will someday. I mean, if I am completely honest I still have zero idea what I wanna do with my life. I have no plan. I just know I want to hone in on as many of my skills as I can because I know at some point they’ll be valuable. My ultimate end game though is to work for myself doing SOMETHING. I just don’t know what that something is and I know college can be a good stepping stone to find it out.
It might take a lot of money and you might waste a lot of money but I see no harm in keeping on trying different options until you find something for you.
This post was written by me last year before I started my first semester of school on a now defunct website. I wanted to share this here because I feel like many people might be in the same boat I was in at that time: not being sure of what they wanted to do in life.
College has been a huge problem for me, I never liked it. I was forced into it. But now I am on my THIRD degree and I am ACTUALLY spending money on something I am heavily interested in at the fresh age of 27 (almost 28). You’re honestly never too old to start striving towards what you love or want to do.
I’d also like to say that now I am in my second semester in the program and I haven’t gotten tired of it yet! I love what I am doing and I have honestly decided this is what I want to do with the rest of my life. Sometimes it just takes a little push or a little “hmm I wonder” to get going. If you’re sitting there thinking you don’t know what you want to do, just sign up for class or two doing something you consider a hobby! For most, hobbies turn into careers so that could very well be an option for you!
Whatever it is you, my lovely reader, decide to do just make sure its for you and no one else. Because in the end, it’s YOUR dream and YOUR life.