I love Hailey Anne Upton. She’s one of my favorite One Chicago Characters. I don’t know why, she just is. So I loved the fact that Chicago PD 8×11 “Signs of Violence” was a Hailey/Upstead-centric episode. However, it was really hard to see Hailey so broken this episode. Can we please assemble the Hailey Upton protection squad? Seriously, protect Hailey Upton at all costs. On another note, this episode blessed us with an Upstead I love you AND an Upstead hug. Upstead is my #1 PD ship, so my heart was happy this week. Chicago PD‘s “Signs of Violence” might be one of my favorite PD episodes this season.
Upstead Said I Love You
Jay finally said it! I will admit though, I thought Hailey would be the first to say I love you, especially since she was the first to admit her felling to Jay. Knowing what I know now though, I completely understand why she didn’t say it first. Hailey’s initial reaction to Jay’s love confession was 100% valid and justified, and it showed just how much she’s had to deal with in the past. I’m glad Hailey didn’t say I love you at the beginning, because it made her saying it at the end that more special and authentic.
I think it’s safe to say that Jay and Hailey have finally found their person. They put each other first, because no one else in their lives have. They both like to push each other away when things get tough because that’s the easy thing to do, but the other one always stays and they end up talking it out.. They’re the only ones who can get through to each other like that, and it’s what makes them so great together. And Upstead is so freaking good together. This is the most secure we’ve seen Jay in a relationship, and Jay is exactly what Hailey needs right now. She needs a rock, and he is there for her. If anyone can show Hailey what a healthy relationship should look like, it’s Jay.
When Hailey Upton cries, I cry. I hated seeing her so crushed and broken. I hate that her childhood has had such a negative effect on her. No one should be so scared and afraid to hear words like “I love you”. Those words shouldn’t make anyone panic and literally bolt in the other direction. Also, the fact that she was so worried that Jay would leave her because of how much her past affects her, and the look of shock on her face when Jay said they’ll figure it out, just broke my heart. She feels like she’s not worthy of him, and that couldn’t be further from the truth.
I love the way they tied Hailey’s messy upbringing into the case with not only her love and security with Jay, but with the case she caught trying to run away from confronting her feelings. I also love that we saw a more raw, vulnerable side of Hailey. However, the fact that her childhood trauma made her doubt herself in many aspects of her life broke me heart. I think though, thanks to her heart-to-heart with Voight, Hailey’s starting to realize that her past does not make her a bad person, a bad cop, or unworthy of love.
Stand Out Scene
Hailey discretely using her finger to show Annie what photo to pick in the photo lineup was a little concerning. I get that she wants to get Hermanez, but there’s a better, and more ethical, way to go about it. The clock is ticking on this case, sure, but if you don’t do things the right way, anything you get might not be admissible anyway. Granted this time it was just a photo line up, but if she continues doing thing like this, next time it might be something more serious.
I can’t help but wonder if Hailey would have done the same thing if the case wasn’t so personal to her. If she didn’t see a little bit of herself in Becca, would she have gone to the drastic measures that she did. We’ve seen her go hard on a case before, but it seems like she went extra hard on this one. I can’t help but wonder, if there wasn’t a little girl missing, if she would have went and tackled Hermanez like she did without the arrest warrant. I want to give Hailey the benefit of the doubt, but I think she, and all of Intelligence, has a little bit of darkness in them.
Hailey: Maybe there’s so part of the that every time I hear I love you I’m just waiting for the punch, for the I’m sorry that’s gonna come. I don’t know how to do this, but I want to. I want to so badly. I want to be with you, I want to learn to do this, I want to be better.
Hailey: So then why don’t you ask the real question. What’s wrong with me, exactly how screwed up am I, and at what point do you cut your losses and run? Because that’s what you want to know Jay.
Jay: Then we’ll figure it out. Cause I want to be with you too. I’m not going anywhere Hailey. Really, I’m not.
Hailey: Jay, I do. I love you, so much.
Jay: I love you
Hailey: I want you. And then I want coffee. And then, I want waffles. And then, I want to go to the range and try out those new .44 mags.
Hailey: So every monster I see is my dad?…Every hurt little kid is me? What, am I unfit to be a cop?
Voight: If you’re unfit, I’m unfit.
Chicago PD airs Wednesdays at 10/9c on NBC.