Kevin Can F**k Himself‘s really went and had my gay feelings going in “Fixed.” Personally, I expected Kevin to not be dead. It was just too easy if the asshole of the show got what’s coming to him. What’s a real shame though is that we’re probably not going to get more of Robin Lord Taylor. That actor is absolutely talented and deserves all the screen time and then some. But back to Kevin Can F**k Himself.
This might sound petty, but I’m glad that Kevin felt the pain of the incident. It made him feel real and grounded in a away that I’ve never when it comes to him. But Kevin being Kevin, bounced by and went for running for city council; also another move that I saw coming miles away because Kevin had to establish himself as a member of this community and make it harder for Allison to kill him and get away with it.
All of this, especially Kevin surviving, ended up making Allison even more desperate to find a solution for the problem they are facing. The “they” of this situation is Allison and Patty, the queer couple I never knew I wanted until “Fixed.” I always knew they had chemistry. Allison and Patty challenged each other, pushed for more, and ended up learning so much from each other.
Kevin Can F**k Himself‘s “Fixed” saw something different brewing between them. It starts with Allison telling Patty that what she’ll get out of this is a safe Patty. That mattered to Patty and opened up her mind and her heart to the possibility that there is something stronger between them. Then they broke into Nick’s apartment and Patty did her very best to protect Allison from being caught.
But the real moment, the one where I was like, “Friends don’t look at each other like that.” came when Allison and Patty were having their big blow-out at the end there. It wasn’t a simple speech grounded in the disappointment Patty felt at having been used and feeling it to deeply because it came from Allison, someone she cares for an has suppressed feelings for.
There was a pause in this scene, a moment where they were faced with a decision that would change their lives forever. And instead of falling into it and admitting their feelings, Allison pulled away and lashed out at Patty to drive a wedge between them. I believe Allison regretted it almost immediately. So did Patty. But both are the kind of people to never admit they’re wrong. So they walked away from each other.
Their relationship was further cemented when Patty came back and chose Allison over her own brother. That right there is a move that is unforgettable and you can tell that Allison got it from the way they held hands; two women against the worst without having spoken about what they truly mean to each other. And for now, I can take that. But as the series goes on, I want truths to be spoken, laid out, and given a name.
Until then, Kevin Can F**k Himself will live in my head as the beginning of a twisted adventure that destroys the trope that gave birth to it. And performances by Annie Murphy and Mary Hollis Inboden act as a grounding force worth exploring and falling in love with, episode per episode, and even when they mess up and stumble. Because both of them do, and that just makes them more human.
Kevin Can F**k Himself airs Sundays at 9/8c on AMC.