Patience is a virtue. As much as I hate to admit that is true and my Mom was right all the times she said that to me, patience is truly a virtue. It’s something that Amy is going to have to learn (and kind of does) really quickly in Doc Season 1, Episode 2.
While I would love to say that episode two is great, I don’t feel that it was. What it was though was an improvement from episode one – because it gave us more insight into the characters, the hospital, and well, in a way redemption. It begs the question – is Amy worthy of redemption? But then again, isn’t everyone?
I can’t imagine losing 8 years of our life and having to figure out what has changed and why. It feels like it would kill me – because having to face all of those feelings and emotions – would be too much. Amy has to face them, but her pressure to get answers is what is too much. Yes, she’s owed answers, but in the same breath, no one owes her their own peace and mental health. And hey, facing the past that hurt them may be too much for anyone.
For Amy, she remembers being a doctor. She remembers her training. She may not remember the advancements that medicine has made, but she does remember the basics and the signs that help her diagnose someone. For the hospital, she’s a liability. For the people that love her and even those that hate her, she’s a mystery. And she’s still got that drive and sometimes it’s too much.
YOU’VE GOT A ROOMMATE
Being a person who spends a lot of time in hospital rooms, I can attest that getting a roommate in the hospital is one of the worst things ever. You don’t know if you’ll like that person or if that person is going to be someone that you can handle. When you’re in the hospital – it is already bad enough – but add a roommate – that takes it to a whole new level.
Only Amy doesn’t mind, because she’s lonely. She’s also got the challenge of trying to figure out what is going on with that person. And when Simone enters the room, she tells Dr. Heller it’s a Lupus flare.
Dr. Heller is in love with Amy and knows that she’s good at her job. Heller tries to tell her to mind her business, to butt out, but at the same time listens to everything that she says. He’s blinded by his heart and it will be something that he is going to have to learn to put that to the side.
Amy is going to have to find her way back to him or not find her way back to him. He’s going to have to deal with his heartbreak on his own time.
Because the thing is that everyone is dealing with something on a personal level. Right now they have to deal with the patient.
I’M HER DAUGHTER
Simone (the patient) has a daughter she hasn’t seen in years. Grace regrets all the time that she spent away from her Mama and just wants to know she is okay. She’s regretting all the time that she was mad, she just thought she had more time.
I know that when anyone writes a television show there is a purpose for everything, even if we don’t get it. There’s a lesson that can happen with anything. For Amy, the lesson was twofold – give time and let your children have the space they need. Both can be a painful experience and both can feel like a lot. But, the thing is that Simone and Grace needed Amy. They needed her opinion because they felt comfortable with her.
When you’re scared in a hospital and feel like no one is on your side, you deal with it however you can. Hospitals are a scary place.
But what I think about this interaction is that it was a lesson for all. For Grace – to listen and there is never enough time. For Amy, it’s about learning medicine again, but also learning to pay attention to her daughter’s wants and needs.
Amy makes a mistake that sends Simone to the ICU. Heller is the doctor in charge and listened, so he’ll be the one shouldering the blame.
MIND YOUR BUSINESS
Grace is upset – rightfully so – that her Mom is in the ICU and isn’t expected to make it through the night. She’s destroyed that she hasn’t spent time with her Mom and that her Mom hasn’t met her son yet.
Dr. Miller is irate. Dr. Heller and he had discussed a round of steroids to treat it. He knows that Heller spoke with Amy, cause the daughter saw her.
Miller is afraid of Amy starting to remember what happened with him and the operating room. He’s afraid that Amy is going to ruin his career, so now that he’s chief, he has the chance to ruin hers (before she even gets it going again).
It doesn’t help that Amy is busy pushing everyone away. She’s mad. Really mad. But I do think that it’s her being mad at herself for what has happened, but also feeling that sense of grief that she’s feeling over her son, the loss of her marriage, and everything else.
The one person that she’s supposed to be able to count on is Gina. I don’t know why it is that her best friend is her doctor, but here we are. When she asks Gina to talk to Michael for her, and Gina says no… I applauded.
The thing that I like about Gina is that she’s a bestie who is not afraid to say no. She’s not afraid to set her bestie straight and tell her how it is. She’s not willing to let Amy push her away.
Gina sees that she needs someone.
PEOPLE NEED TIME
Amy may not recognize who she once was, but everyone else seems stuck there – in the past – focused on the tyrant she used to be. And hey, I get it, because she’s kinda the most miserable person ever. She’s berated every one of them.
In all the flashbacks in Doc Season 1, Episode 2 we see that Amy is suffering. In the present, we see that Amy is suffering. But what Amy doesn’t seem to realize is that all of these people are trying to look out for her, too. Well, her and the hospital.
When Amy goes into the board meeting to try and plead her case. It’s only been four days since her accident. She needs to give herself time. Michael had told her that, but of course, she didn’t listen. She’s passionate about being a doctor and wants to return to some sort of normalcy, rather than everyone just saying that she’s forgotten 8 years of her life.
I feel bad for Michael when he’s gotta be the one to break it to Amy that the board has decided that they will not be bringing her back. He was to explain to her that she’s burned a lot of bridges and didn’t have the best reputation.
He then has to explain to her to give Katie time. It’s a lot for both of them.
IT’S A MASK
I have to admit that I didn’t think that Amy would be let out of the hospital this soon. I thought that they would keep her there awhile, but I kinda love that they didn’t. I think that Amy is going to have to learn to be alone because it’s going to force her to look in and change.
And if she can’t do that, she can’t be a good doctor.
At least that’s my thought.
Seeing Amy look at her apartment and see how she lives – it kinda broke me. It broke me because you see her not recognize who she’s become and her not wanting to be that person.
Amy needs to think and don’t you know she has a phone call and then she is ready to go back to the hospital. She knows what to do to help her roommate. Granted she’s gonna have to get Heller (which isn’t hard) and Grace to agree. Grace would rather see her dead than let her near her Mom.
Sometimes you have to just be humble though and admit your faults and it will all work out. I haven’t taken Amy as the type of person who actually does that, who knows if they would have been able to deal with Simone.
I think that the point of Doc Season 1, Episode 2 is resilience. It’s the point of finding peace in the chaos or at least starting down that road. Amy is in chaos right now, but so are all of the people around her. She doesn’t see the end of the road – where things find peace and she makes them better for the people she’s hurt and herself.
But I see her taking those first steps and making things better for others first and then herself. I see her fighting to be a better person and to want to make amends.
The course of treatment that Heller and her suggest ends up saving the Roomie. I was glad to see Amy win.
She definitely needed a win.
CHANGE AND STRENGTH
I think that for me – the best scene of Doc Season 1, Episode 2 was the last one. The moments with Amy and Michael together.
While I know that Michael and Amy are divorced, it’s obvious that he loves her and she loves him. Whatever happened in the past – she doesn’t remember, but she remembers her love for her ex.
Amy tells Michael that she regrets going to the board meeting and that she should have waited and listened to him. She told him that she’ll wait for Katie. She wants to do things differently.
All of the words that Amy says are the words that Michael has wanted to hear. I think when you get to hear all of the things that you’ve waited a lifetime for – something in you is bound to change. Something in you is bound to see the person that you once loved and/or have it remind you of falling in love with that person – naturally, you’re going to go to bat for that person.
Definitely going to be an experience with him getting her to be able to stay at the hospital, working. He put his rear end on the line for his ex-wife. He wants to make her better.
I think that there are going to be a lot of things that are going to happen between these two that will challenge what we think of them. I think that we’re going to find ourselves going on a roller coaster with these two because the past is still there and neither one of them has come to terms with it.
I WILL WAIT
Not going to like, Amy having patience for anything wasn’t on my bingo card. She’s intense. Really intense. But, when it comes to her daughter, I think she’s learning that she can’t be that. She needs to have patience.
For Katie, the things that happened with her Mom, those things happened over time and she’s made her peace with it. Revisiting it wasn’t something that she wanted to do – she wasn’t ready.
Do I think that at a certain point, Katie and Amy are going to talk about what happened? Yes, I do. But do I also think that it going to be hard for Amy to hear? Yes. And yet, somehow I don’t feel bad for her. I think I am supposed to and this may make me sound cold, but I don’t feel bad for Amy.
I think that she did what she did – whatever it is – and it’s valid for Katie to feel however she feels. If it’s too much for Katie, it’s too much. I did find some respect for Amy when she told Katie that she’d wait until she was ready to talk about it. I think that’s respectable.
All I do hope is that Katie waits to face things on her own time. This is a lot for her. She doesn’t owe her parents anything that she’s not ready for.
OTHER THOUGHTS
- Dr. Maitra is bitter and wants revenge and that means I don’t trust her. Woman has to let things go
- Don’t get me wrong – old Amy is not a good person and I get that and I don’t think everyone has to
- The ending… WOAH. It goes to show why Michael is the best character on this show.
- Miller is the most disgusting. We hate him so much. No redemption for him
- Have I mentioned that I HATE Miller?
