When the pandemic started, I felt a fear that I had never felt before. No two people experience things the same way and for me, one of the most traumatic things was seeing the pandemic unfold outside my bedroom window. I watched day after day as bodies were carried outside and placed in mobile morgues.
The pandemic has been one of the loneliest times in my life. I have loved that celebrities have been open about their feelings over the pandemic. In a recent news letter, Lorde talked about how the pandemic has made her feel.
“The pandemic has continued to make things difficult, lonely, or dangerous for absolutely everyone in varying degrees, but outside of that, 2021 has been tough in completely unexpected ways. Being away from home at a time where the country’s struggling to contain the virus, feeling isolated from friends and loved ones there. Looking out at the country I’m in and feeling estranged from so much of what I see, and knowing it feels as estranged from me.,” Lorde wrote.
She continued, “Questioning what I’m doing and why, all the time, on an unprecedented level. Dealing with rough patches in close relationships, and feeling sensitive and emotional and reactive as a result. And missing you! The decision to step back from social media has been something I’ve really questioned through this time. I was so sure skipping the negatives (compulsive time-wasting, IV drip of dread, satisfying but hollow validation loop) would outweigh missing out on the positives (feeling like part of a community, hearing your sweet words, hitting you back) . But I’ve really, really missed you.”
Just a few lines, but something that rings so true for me.
What do you think? What have been your thoughts on the pandemic? How has it made you feel?