If there is anything that we have learned from the episodes of Panic up until now, it’s that there isn’t a person in this town that isn’t looking for acceptance and a way out. Everyone has secrets, things that they want to protect, and people that they want to save.
Yes, even Natalie, and we all know that I am not her biggest fan.
But maybe the thing is that in the road to finding our place, where we belong and what we are worth.
I took issue with the last episode and Ray’s way of treating Heather. But I am beginning to wonder if I had the wrong idea about him. I think that if anything he’s looking more and more like the guy who really is just looking for love and acceptance.
And he doesn’t get it.
But maybe if he wins the game, he’ll gain respect and that’s something that he doesn’t have. And maybe that respect will come from Heather, someone he can get love from, and will make him feel better about himself. After all don’t we want to all just want to be loved?
TIME WITH RAY
Heather arrives home and there is a party going on in the trailer park. Ray is there and he wants her attention. He invites her out on the boat with his friends and as per usual, Heather is like let me hurt people before they hurt me. She says she was drunk the other night and they did something dumb. End of story. He asks her if he was sure about that. And I don’t think she is.
She needs an escape, because her Mama has let the boyfriend back in and Heather can’t take it. She’s got no where where she is safe – so why not take a walk on the wild side – go out on boat with Ray. He asks if she changed mind. She says she lost it.
The thing about Ray and Heather on the boat – it’s great to see them talk and let a each other in. I feel as though these two have had all of the things in life stacked up against them, but they are trying to make it into a better life. They’ve done the best with the situation they are in, but what bothers me is that they both allow themselves to be defined by the mistakes of others.
For instance, Ray’s Dad been in jail since he was a kid. Heather asks if his Dad really did the things that people say he did, if he really shot the person. He says no one has ever asked him that question, but innocent or guilty he is serving life without parole.
And I think that for him that’s been a part of what makes him think that he is trash. He wants to have a good time, sure. But I really do ship these two together, because they challenge each other. And because they just have an electricity.
BUCKIN WITH DODGE
Dodge is at the rodeo, and Natalie came to watch. She tells him it was amazing. She found where he was cause she saw Dana that morning and she told Natalie where he is. Dodge says he knows what she’s trying to do – trying to get her to like him, but he says she doesn’t have to do that, he doesn’t make promises he can’t keep.
Natalie says that she doesn’t need a reason to be his friend, she has a thing for cowboys. But with Natalie, she has an ulterior motive for everything.
Nat is trying to relate to Dodge and learn about him, but she’s also letting down her guard. And if I trusted her I would believe her. But something she said, if even one person sees you – you don’t count as invisible anymore, resonated. It made me feel for her.
GRAYBILL HOUSE
100 years ago, Graybill was the richest man in Texas. He loved Carp, and the land he chose to build on was cursed. Graybill didn’t believe in curses, so he built the house anyway. When he came home he knocked 4 times before enter so that his wife and kids could meet him at the door.
One day he came home and didn’t knock so he could surprise his wife and found her in the arms in another man. In fit of rage he killed his family and buried them in the walls of the house. He then hung himself.
So people think that the place is haunted. I mean judging by that story I wouldn’t want to go there either.
But that’s part of what makes the Graybill house a tradition.
Before the challenge, Captain Williams is at the Graybill house checking out a disturbance. Lil BIll is inside, and when the Captain tells him he has to leave, he does. But he accidentally dumps his backpack and there are needles that fall out.
I get that things in small towns work differently – I grew up in one part of the time. But when someone is on drugs, you don’t just be like you have 50 seconds before I see that. Especially because the other thing is that you don’t know how much they’ve taken and if they are safe. And you know – you at the very least get them help.
Graybill House challenge – the rules are simple. You have to stay there and scare the shit out of each other and there is a 50 point bonus for whomever can solve the riddles in the blood.
This house is seriously fucking scary. I would have turned around and walked back out. But they are heading in and they are finding the clues. I think that Heather, Natalie, and Dodge are working together but I don’t know.
Nat and Dodge go in a room. There is a dummy hanging by a noose and Dodge cuts it down. Heather says hey guys over here, as she found a new clue. They figure out it’s the noos man. Natalie finds the clue in the noose and they think it’’s in the kitchen. Heather gets left behind, which is why I am hesitant to believe they think of her.
Natalie is hitting on Dodge so hard it’s embarrassing. Like I legit have second hand embarrassment for her. But my happiness for Dodge is high when he solves the blood puzzle.
At least something goes his way.
COME ON BABY, LIGHT MY FIRE
Ray pulls Heather into a room. I mean what’s sexier then having sex in a haunted house? Well, I can think of a lot of things. These two are always in their own way. For a second I am like HELL YES and then in the next second, I am like RAY! HEATHER! They both say stupid shit and get in their own way.
Heather is trying to get out of her own feelings and it’s making her take things the wrong way. Ray is trying to have feelings and she’s dashing that at every turn. She doesn’t realize that she’s standing in her own way and that insulting him isn’t helping the situation.
And then Nat doesn’t help it when she catches them walking out, one after the other, and tells Heather that he’s obviously just trying to distract her. Like let your best friend have something. Especially when you’re a shitty person and making alliances behind her back and going to cut her out.
Ray goes down into basement with Tyler. They see Lil Bill out in the corner, looks as thougHis phone dies and so he tries to start a generator which starts a fire. They run out. Dodge is carried out – he’s been electrocuted. Ray makes it out and he notices Heather isn’t there. He runs back in to try and find her.
Natalie and Heather were padlocked by some of the other girls trying to scare them. Heather manages to get Natalie out, but she can’t get out. They are trying everything to get Heather out, but they can’t. Natalie goes to get help.
And Heather keeps trying to get out, but in that moment, a book case falls on her and she’s trapped. But she’s never been one to give up. She asks for help, but no one was there to get her.
Please say she’s okay.
I don’t know about you all – but I am rooting for Heather. I need her to survive and win.
OTHER THOUGHTS
- Bishop in car. Hunt shows up to see him. Asks for money. Bishop says that this is the last time. He means it. Bishop looks worried. What is he really doing?
- Cap and Langley tell the Sheriff that they can’t figure out how the graffiti got at the grainery.
- Bishop with the phone hidden in the wall, and his Dad letting the Sheriff look around – I don’t like where this is heading.
- Natalie setting Bishop and Heather to have to talk was kinda shitty, but it’s some shit I would do because friends need to talk and get past it.
- Why did Sarah break into Bishops? What does she know?
- Bishop kicking Heather out of the car – like come on! Your jealousy is showing.
