You were supposed to be the one person who would never hurt me, but now you’re the person who hurt me the most.
Belly made me fall on the ground with that sentence. I may not have like a lot of moments in this episode, but I also know that is a good thing. Television is supposed to make you feel something.
This episode did. This was not pretty.
If I learned anything from Friends, I learned that it’s never a breakup, it’s a break. You need a full on conversation – one that is not in the heat of the moment. But here I am – doing something I never thought I would do… understanding Jeremiah.
I am fully aware that I have been very vocal about the fact that I am not team Jelly. I don’t like cheating, will never like a cheater, and will always think that I will never forgive a cheater. It’s happened to me and it was the worst moment in a relationship I have experienced.
But here I am – fully team Conrad – and understanding why Jeremiah didn’t tell Belly after he didn’t that first night. Sometimes it gets easier as time passes to just not say anything and hope that by not saying anything it will just fade away. Sometimes, silence is the easiest way. At a certain point opening your mouth and saying what is on your mind is to relieve your own conscious and that’s not fair.
Now, I am not saying he was right. But what I am saying is I can understand. I think we all can.
SPRING BREAK
If my boyfriend was going out of the country and I find out by an alert I casually see pop up on his phone – I would read the riot act. There would be a conversation that I don’t want to have, but it would be about trust and lies and don’t take your crap out on me.
Jeremiah acting as though Belly was out of line asking about it and then going off on her – well, that wouldn’t be a move that I would think that Conrad would make. I guess that they are more alike than I have given credit for.
But this whole fight and the breakup and then him leaving for a week and not even a text? Bite me Jeremiah.
It seems though that he didn’t call because he was guilty and hurting Belly with that guilt isn’t fair. Returning and not telling her the truth – unfair. Here we are though and Belly had to come find him. She had to approach him when he got back and talk to him.
His return and letting her believe that you feel guilty over your breakup and just being like I don’t want to loose you is wrong. He had an opprotunity to at least say I really thought we were broken up.
While I do understand what Jeremiah did with his silence, I also do think that this shows how he is not ready for a relationship. And quite frankly it’s a big strike against him. He doesn’t deserve her.
TAYLOR
Belly is better than most of us, laying in her bed, not even putting on comfy clothes, and ignoring people. Sweats and no makeup would be what I lived in for months. Breakups hurt. I am thankful that she had Anika to stand guard.
When Taylor tells Jeremiah that he was supposed to be the ideal, that he was supposed to deserve her, I stood up and clapped. Taylor is the bestie we all want. The one we all deserve.
I just felt bad for her that Belly didn’t want to see her. I felt so badly for her, because I am her. I would have hated Jeremiah and his side chick and I would have destroyed them. Everything would lead to me tearing them apart.
But for Taylor, she has to come face to face with what she’s doing too. Her and Steven both do. Fate is going to bring them back together, I believe that. When Steven tells Taylor that he broke up with Mia and her putting up walls – I cried for her.
I cried and was angry because she pulls away at every turn. The way she stepped up when Steven got in his accident – that’s the bestie we all need.
STEVENS ACCIDENT
Conrad, I adore you. I adore the fact that you are who you are and you put others first. Making the ask and then the phone call to get Steven help – I am thankful for you.
I am also thankful for Jeremiah sitting in the lobby and being close just in case.
But what I am most thankful for is that Taylor was able to open up and tell him how much she loves him and how she pushes him away because she is scared. Taylor it takes strength to realize that trying is a sign of strength. Knowing who you want to be with – that’s a gift.
That’s a gift not a lot of us get.
Taylor telling Belly that it’s okay. To not throw things away – it’s okay. She’s not wrong – following your heart – there is nothing wrong with that. It’s just sometimes not enough.
I have to wonder though, was Steven fair to himself when he woke up and told Taylor she was right for telling him that they wouldn’t work. He hurt her and he hurt himself.
I hated this episode for Taylor, because she hurt. But I also loved for her that she found that she wanted to let love in. Now we just need to get her there.
EVERYTHING LEADS TO HIM
When you have to face the pain of losing someone – it’s definitely not easy. Everything on campus reminds Belly of Jeremiah and that’s hard. Anika is right – the secret is the worst part.
But don’t we all have secrets?
But as Belly is facing things and runs into Jeremiah and she stops to ask the qesuyions and listen and he says twice- all bets are off. Jeremiah is making himself a victim. Him on his knees saying his sorries – well, I thought that it would be something I would want but nah. I had to look through my fingers.
Jeremiah, you screwed up.
But if they were really broken up, she can’t fault him for that. But lets be real, if any of us broke up with someone and they immediately got under someone else – I would tell them where to go and how fast to get there.
DAY 1
Med school and Conrad doing rounds. Ummm… things I never thought I would see. But lordy, it made me happy. It made me happy to see him healing and growing and finding who he is – well, Susannah would be proud. I am proud and we’re talking a fictional character here.
It’s Day 1 of his program and the one thing I am missing – when are we going to see or hear about Jeremiah knowing Conrad isn’t coming to Cousins. But the thing is we’re not going to get that.
Why? Well because it took less than a day and Conrad was let go from the program. He messed up and didn’t know his limits. I don’t disagree with him being let go for the mistake that he made.
And I don’t disagree with the leader telling him she should have taken the day when she asked him if he needed to be.
I am not sure why it is that all of this indecision is in his heart right now, but I assume it’s being so far away and knowing he can’t help Steven right now. But the conversation in the bar with his friend made all these feelings rise to the surface.
Conrad Fisher – you need to tell how you feel. And you need to stop running.
CHRISTMAS
Cousins. Somehow Cousins feels like this magical place where dreams come true. It’s as if you’re on the Yellow Brick road and you finally reach Oz. Cousins is like a mystical place.
It’s Belly and Conrads place. Yes, it feels like a place that has memories everywhere and not all of them good.
Seeing these two together and them having an easy time – just falling into place is both scary and comforting. And yes, it is a secret and so I would feel like a hypocrite not calling these two out for not telling Jeremiah. BUT, I will say this, they had their lies of omission on lock .
But are her secrets any better or any worse? That’s subjective. A secret is still a secret.
And if your relationship is based on secrets – what do you really have?
THE ENDING
Jeremiah staying at the hospital and respecting Belly and keeping his distance – I forgot for a second all the bad he did. I don’t think that Jeremiah is a bad person. I don’t think that he would really ever want to hurt anyone and him hurting Belly was the last thing he’d want to do.
I am gonna throw so much shade right here and I am okay with it. Belly and Jeremiah – you both showed a lesson in what not to do. And what am I talking about?
I understand that trauma changes everyone. And the reality is Steven’s accident changed them all. When we’re faced with our own mortality, we react in different ways. For Belly, her ideas of love and romance and being super charged by her conversation with Taylor – she was on the life is too short train.
But that ending – Jeremiah and Belly going for a walk and talk things out and end up engaged? No. Just no.
Do I think Jeremiah asked her to marry him BECAUSE it was his way of holding on to Belly? YES, I do. I think that he asked because he was trying to hold onto her and show her that she’s the one for him.
Is this gonna be a journey? Yes. I’ve read the book a million times and I know that we’re on one. BUT, that being said, this feels so wrong and so at the wrong time. These two are jumping in to hold on to something – but the trust has been broken. This is like walking into a fire and unfortunately, the pain that is going to come along with it will not just hurt them.
Don’t make life changing decisions based on temporary emotions or triggers.
It is going to hurt everyone. Mark my words.
OTHER
- Jeremiah using his Moms passing in his argument – thats the lowest of the low
- I love Taylor and how she can see both sides of a situation.
- Laurel and John >>>
- Jeremiah – I loved you sitting at the hospital. That was showing your character and I loved seeing that side of you is there
- Susannah would be proud of her sons
- Well, Steven working for Conrad and Jeremiah’s Dad. I mean I hate it but here we are.
The first two episodes of the third and final season of The Summer I Turned Pretty are streaming now on Prime Video.
