Who would have thought 8 or so minutes of no spoken words could captivate you? I wouldn’t. I mean yes, I like silence, but not when I am watching television.
When I am watching television or streaming, I am always only half watching. Everything in life is a moment to multitask, and this is no different for me.
But Survive, I have been forced to stop what I am doing and pay actual attention.
All I kept thinking while watching this – well actually I thought two things. The first being, OMG please tell me that Paul is still alive. The second? Wow Jane, you don’t even realize what a badass you are.
Because Jane is a badass.
Jane had left Paul to go and get help. She knew that she had no choice. It was the only way that either of them had a chance of survival, and with everything that has happened to them – they both wanted to find a will to survive.
They both needed to know that even if they weren’t going to be okay – which if we’re being honest, I firmly believe that they both wanted to be okay – that the other one of them would be fine.
And Jane – she’s never known her strength. She’s always doubted who she is. She’s hung on to the memories of the past and let them define who she is. She’s not stopped for a second to realize that she is more than the circumstances of her life.
And so she’s never had the will to live.
Because when a wolf comes for her – you see something in her snap. It’s like a light switch that turns on, and she’s standing there basically saying that you can’t hurt me.
Because I won’t give up.
And she takes on that wolf.
If you are eating before watching this episode, do yourself a favor and reconsider that decision. Because I straight up spit out my oatmeal as Jane killed that wolf.
Her fight or flight instinct was strong and she was willing to fight for her life. She wasn’t going to let herself die.
And when she reaches the river – tears came into my eyes as she dropped the stopwatch that her father had given her. But she didn’t stop. She didn’t need it for strength anymore.
She had strength.
And that strength carried her up the hill, where she collapsed once she hit the road.
But at the same point – Jane – you couldn’t stop rooting her on. Because as you watched her collapse, you felt like you could breathe.
Because she’d made it.
She’d found the will to live.
And the only thing that left you with was a hope that Paul had survived too.