We’ve been watching The Me You Can’t See slowly, as it’s a lot. It’s heartbreaking, but it’s also one of the most important conversations that we need to be having. Mental Health is such an important conversation to be had and one that we aren’t having enough.
Meghan had previously opened up about the night that she had suicidal thoughts. She had said in the interview that she was contemplating killing herself on the night of January 16, 2019, right before the two were set to leave for an event at Royal Albert Hall.
“The thing that stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me after everything that had happened to my mum and to now be put in a position of losing another woman in my life, with a baby inside of her, our baby,” Harry said. “The scariest thing for her was her clarity of thought. She hadn’t ‘lost it.’ She wasn’t crazy. She wasn’t self-medicating, be it through pills or through alcohol. She was absolutely sober. She was completely sane. Yet in the quiet of night, these thoughts woke her up.”
“I’m somewhat ashamed of the way that I dealt with it,” Harry continued. “And of course, because of the system that we were in and the responsibilities and the duties that we had, we had a quick cuddle, and then we had to get changed and had to jump in a convoy with a police escort and drive to the Royal Albert Hall for a charity event and then step out into a wall of cameras and pretend as though everything’s OK. There wasn’t an option to say, ‘You know what? Tonight we’re not going to go. Because just imagine the stories that come from that.”
I am telling you, even reading the words is devastating. No one should ever have to feel the way that these two did, famous or not. There should always be an option to put ones self first and the fact that they couldn’t is heartbreaking.
He continued in the special, talking about what happened at the event at Royal Albert Hall.
“While my wife and I were in those chairs, gripping each other’s hand, the moment the lights go down, Meghan starts crying,” he said about that night. “I’m feeling sorry for her, but I’m also really angry with myself that we’re stuck in this situation. I was ashamed that it got this bad. I was ashamed to go to my family. Because to be honest with you, like a lot of other people my age could probably relate to, I know that I’m not gonna get from my family what I need.”