Fame is one of the scariest things in the world to me. Why? Because I wouldn’t want to live in a fish bowl and I definitely wouldn’t want to live in one like the members of One Direction did. Though I miss One Direction, I do understand more and more why the band took a break and understand why that break has been quite sometime.
Liam Payne opened up about his time in One Direction while on The Diary of a CEO podcast. He opened up about his mental health when he was asked if he ever had, “suicidal ideation.”
“Yeah. There is some stuff that I’ve definitely never spoken about to do with it. It was really, really, really severe. It was a problem.” he said.
That makes my heart break, because I know what suicidal ideation is like and I would never wish that upon anyone.
The singer also went on to talk about his addiction to alcohol.
“There were a few pictures of me on a boat and I was all bloated out and I call it my pills-and-booze face,” Liam said about that time in life. “My face was 10 times bigger than it is now. The problem was, in the band… the best way to secure us, because of how big we’d got, was just to lock us in our rooms. What’s in the room? A mini-bar. So at a certain point I thought, I’m just going to have a party-for-one and that seemed to carry on for many years of my life… It was wild but it was the only way you could get frustration out.”
I definitely feel for him. No one should have to feel this way.