Secrets. We all knew that when they started coming out, the game would use them to try and destroy the players. After all, isn’t that what it’s about? Facing your biggest fears? And sometimes, the truth is the biggest fear most of us have.
Because will people be able to handle the truth? Will it make them think more or less of you? Is your truth the same as theirs? What sense does it all make? Does it make any at all?
We’ve been going through a slower moment with Panic, as far as the game, but we knew that the secrets that were told on the bridge would start to take center stage. And they have.
But these secrets may destroy everyone. And they may save others.
MAMA IS A LIAR
Heathers been gone for a few days with Lily, and I don’t blame her. I wouldn’t want to return home when my Mom’s boyfriend tried to kill me and scarred my sister. Her Mom shows up at Anne’s and says that Heather stole her car.
Ummm, lets talk facts here Mama. Cause your facts are way off.
Heather asked for a second to talk to her Mom and Anne gave her that. Her Mom says she’s worried, but Heather really doesn’t care what she has to say. She is kinder than I would be – she tells her Mama that she’s not a bad person, she’s she not a Mom. I think that has to be one of the most painful things for her Mom to hear.
What does she expect after all of the things that she did? She wasn’t a good Mom. She wasn’t there for her kids. She put herself first.
Anne tells Heather that she insists that Lily and her come stay with her. She’s got extra bedrooms. And Heather is thankful for that. Me – all I can think about is that tiger and what harm can come from it. What if Lily wanders up there? What if something happens? It’s just too much.
EMOTIONAL WARFARE
Dodge is worried about his sister and that is one of the best things about him. But what sucks is all of the bullshit that he is doing in the name of his sister, but Dana is tired of talking about the accident. She just wants to move forward with her life. She wants to figure out how to work within her disability.
But Dodge is determined to make Luke pay and I can also get that. But finding out that he’s feeding the sheriff information. – that is a lot. Because I don’t trust the sheriff at all. I don’t think that he’s got anyones best interest at heart.
I honestly believe that the Sheriff is just as wrapped up in this whole thing.
But there is something endearing knowing that Dodge’s biggest motivation in life is his sister. He wants to protect her. So. when it comes to his challenge – he has to find a key. But when he steps into the room of keys, he hears his sisters voice and he thinks that they have her.
He fights to get her out, only to find they have a recording of her voice and it’s not her.
This game is all sorts of fucked up and the emotional warfare that these judges play is too much. But what I do think is that Luke has something on most of them and he’s fucking with them all to get the most bang for his buck.
COME CLEAN
Heather goes to see Bishop and it takes only seconds before there are arguments happening here. I know that Bishop really loves her, but he has a habit of saying things that are just hurtful as fuck.
When Heather tells him about Luke and the bets, Bishop becomes rude. He puts down Ray and says that Ray has to have something to do with it. And yes, part of me thinks that he does, but part of me thinks that Ray is being taken advantage of to. Heather agrees and refuses to believe that Ray is involved.
Regardless of what everyone says about Ray, there are a lot of things that he has said that have made perfect sense to Heather. And I think that they’ve made sense, because Heather has never had to make an excuse for who she is with Ray. With Bishop, he has such a disregard for his status or privilege. To him, money is nothing. To Heather, it is everything.
When Heather leaves, pissed off, Ray decides to make his way to Rays. He tells Ray to come clean and they get into a fight. But I honestly believe Ray doesn’t know the severity of the situation because he seems shocked to find out that his brother is behind Dana’s accident.
It’s a lot to handle. Everything is a lot for Ray to handle. His challenge of getting locked in the morgue freezer, that’s a lot for him to handle.
THE PILLS
Last years game is front and center again. Leela and Hunt are back and I have to say, I am glad that they are okay. But them being back only exposes more peoples secrets.
Hunt has come clean and that’s a good thing. They both go into the Sheriff’s station and talk to Langley and Captain Williams. And what comes up – Abby’s letters. That’s right people – they exist. Leela has the letters and the cops can see that her Mom wasn’t lying.
Hunt has come clean with what he knows. We also know that Myra was actually in the final four of the year before. This means she lied also.
What we do find out is that whomever was threatening Abby, they were going to tell about the baby. What baby? I am freaking out. Did she die pregnant?
Hunt being back doesn’t mean that the judges are going to loosen up on Shawna. If anything they are going to play into her fear of becoming her brother. Tyler is the MC of her challenge and her challenge is taking pills.
The pills could be drugs or the pills could be sugar pills. She’s seen what her brother has been through with his addiction and she’s not about to go there. She may be the one person in this game with some brains, because she’s not willing to cower and knows that money isn’t worth everything.
Especially fucking up your future.
But isn’t that what Panic does? It fucks up your entire future. You may not see it, but it screws with your brain and will mess up your future.
STABBED IN THE BACK
Well we all know that I have thought that Natalie is the worst of the worst. So do I feel bad for her that her challenge was Heather watching the video that she made at the train tracks? Nope. But I do feel for Heather.
Diggins texts Heather to come watch a movie, but when she arrives, he’s no where to be found. Natalie walks in – because it’s where she is told to be for her challenge. And then the video starts.
And Heather learns the truth.
Natalies alliance with Dodge because public. But also her double cross of Heather becomes public too. And does the reason why become public? Yes. She’s mad that Heather participated in Panic!
Look Natalie, you selfish biotch, not all of us have money. And Heather didn’t have a choice but to play. But Natalie, you did. Stabbing your best friend in the back says more about you then it does about her.
I am sad that Heather is hurting, but I am glad that she found out what Natalie is up to. I didn’t want her to keep feeding her best friend information, when all that it meant was helping her and Dodge, not to mention your inevitable pain.
THE GATHERING
Part of me thinks that Shawna quit because she is a judge, but then part of me doesn’t. So, who knows.
Players past and present of Panic gather at the Lodge. Diggins tells them that Natalie has been disqualified for cheating – as she never made it into Spurlock’s house. Dodge stole for her. Dodge, Ray, and Heather (she’s back in due to Natalie’s disqualification) are the final three. It’s time for Heather’s individual challenge.
OMG – it better have NOTHING to do with the tiger. Sorry, I know that things is coming into play sometime and it is giving me anxiety.
OTHER THOUGHTS
- Jimmy’s Mom realizing that he is the one that switched out the pistol – first (1) she needs help, she tried to kill herself and (2) that’s gotta be sooo heartbreaking.
- Tyler is literally the creepiest. Like his whole like will be being a drug dealer and he needs help.
- Didn’t Ray cheat too? So is he being kept in the game because of Luke?
- I want to know what Bishop knows what we don’t know yet. Cause it is something.
- I will bet that the Sheriff knows more and is in on the betting with Panic.
