I have to admit when episode 5 ended, my heart skipped a beat. Would Heather make it? How would she get out? How would the players cover this one up? Did Lil Bill make it out?
There are always so many more questions than answers at the end of every episode, but that’s expected. Panic is a game, but it’s also putting all of the mystery together. It’s figuring out all the clues that will show us just who is behind this game, what everyone is up to, and just how fucked up Carp is.
Because let us all be honest – Carp is one issue after another. Carp is one lie after another. Carp is one event after another that leaves you knowing that this small town is filled with nothing but liars and secrets.
SHE MADE IT OUT
When episode 5 ended, the only thing that I could think was, DID HEATHER SURVIVE? I mean, sure she’s the protagonist, so I was thinking that she had to have. But then again, who knows.
Heather did make it out, because she’s a fighter and fear doesn’t stop her. The will to live and get out keeps her going. When she made it out, Natalie found her and they got her to the hospital. She could have died, but she didn’t.
What bothers me is that Heather acts like being alive is an inconvenience. Getting hurt screwed up everything for everyone. Ummm, no girl. That’s Tyler. Why? Because his dumb ass had to turn on the generator and start the fire. Where is he? That’s what I want to know.
When she wakes up in the hospital, Bishop is sitting there waiting for her to wake up. He was scared, wishes he was there… but she doesn’t wish he was there. And it’s not out of cruelty that she didn’t want him there. It’s because she wanted to protect him. She always wants to protect everyone but herself.
While I think that Heather is a good person, she needs to be more careful, because the game isn’t worth dying for.
Everyone has come up with an excuse, they were there for a party. And what do we find out in the hospital? Dodge’s Mom knows he is playing Panic. She knows that they are there for the game. Ummm, what the hell.
Heather is like will I get extra points for being last one to leave. Nat and Bishop tell her Bill was squatting in the basement. Tyler found his body before fire broke out. There was a needle in his arm so they can’t be sure of how it happened, if he died from fire or from an overdose.
With being awake, you get visitors. And one of those is Natalies Dad. He wants to know what they were doing there. He tells Heather that she was very lucky, because seconds after Natalie found her, the whole second floor came down. But for Heather it wasn’t luck, she says, she just got out later than everyone. I think Heather refuses to believe in luck and chooses to believe in her friends – which is stupid, because Natalie is a double crosser.
The events at the Greybill house mean one thing – the kids that were there are going to be watched more closely. They are definitely going to have a harder time playing the game.
THE D.A. WANTS BLOOD
After Lil Bills service, the Sheriff spoke to the District Attorney. He’s got a lot of followers, a lot of people that respect him. And what does her want? He wants someone charged in his son (Lil Bill’s) death.
Williams is like are you serious, we have all been partying there since we were kids. The truth is – in my opinion – it’s easier to blame someone than accept that your son was on drugs. Sheriff is like it or not – if you can’t prove the OD doesn’t matter. The fire burnt the evidence.
In this town everyones got secrets and I do think that Lil Bill had something weighing heavily on his conscious. What if he knew something about the game?
Bishop’s Dad saw the D.A. also after Lil Bill’s funeral. They want to arrest someone for Panic, his Dad says that he told them that Bishop wouldn’t be mixed up in that, not after everything that his Dad has done for him. Bishop is like Dad, not everything is about you. BIG MISTAKE. Bishop’s Dad isn’t the most understanding person. Dad is like you trying to be cute, slams on brakes and smacks Bishop – telling him to get it together. He says that everyone is watching and waiting for them to mess up.
And hey, though Bishop’s Dad isn’t the most supportive, I would hope that Bishop is realizing that he’s letting shit get out of control and not pulling his shit together.
Heather at work, and I am thinking that Anne may be the best influence on her. She’s willing to go out of the way for Heather, worries about her, and encourages her to live out her dreams. When Heather tells her that she’s going to start a certification program to become an accountant and Anne flat out says I don’t see you as an accountant, I have so much respect for her.
Heather loves writing stories, but they are made up and in the real world you have to be realistic. Anne is like the trouble with that is the real world everyone has different ideas of realistic. Make your own reality. And it is the best advice that I have heard.
And it comes just in time because when she picks up Lily and brings her home, finding out that someone has been making fun of her and calling her trash, she’s inspired to lead her sister the right way. Remind her that money isn’t everything and you aren’t defined by it. You’re either a garbage person or you’re not and the kids teasing her are the ones that sound like trash.
The talk with Anne did Heather good, because she’s at Nat’s and she’s worried about the game. She knows if the game gets called off she is fucked, because she wants to get out of Carp. Heather is like telling Natalie just how bad things are and how her life isn’t like Natalies. I would love to believe that Natalie grasps onto that, but I don’t think she does.
I want to like Natalie, but I don’t. I don’t believe that she has any good intentions. Even when she comes over to Dodge’s with a gift (stuffed dolphin) and tries to get to know him. She could be letting her walls down and I can respect that, but any relationship that starts off with so many lies and manipulations can’t be a positive thing.
But somehow, these two fall into bed with each other and I can’t tell if it is because they truly like each other OR they are both trying to escape life. Hell maybe they need to work out the stress of Panic.
But it soon comes to an end, Dodge has places to be.
It’s Derby Day; Dodge and Ray are both competing. Everyone in town is there to watch the Derby. But as usual with these two – it’s all about Panic. Nat says that there is a challenge coming – but the game feels different. Of course it does – you all keep almost getting caught.
Heather had found a sheet at her house that looked like the sheet that she found in the basement at Spurlock’s. She tells Natalie that she thinks that people are betting on the game and that what she found was the spread.
Attention switches to the derby, because Natalie is focused on Dodge. Damnit, does she like him? I am so confused as to what this girl is up to. She admits to Heather that she slept with him and honestly. if I was Heather, it would set off a big red flag. After all she had just told her that Ray was only trying to distract her. Shouldn’t it be the same theory?
But Natalie is able to change it to Heather really quick, because Bishop arrives. Heather is staring at him, and Nat is like please go tell him because your sexual frustrations have the worst taste.
Ray wins his heat in the derby and as usual is over the top. But it’s the interaction between Luke and Dodge that has my attention. He is trying to figure out Dodge in terms of the game and I am pretty sure that he wants Dodge to bow out. But he’s not going anywhere. As far as Dodge is concerned he’s going to win and I think it scares Luke too.
Everyone is celebrating and as Bishop is at the keg, Shannon comes up and tells him that she was doing her community service at the police station when she heard Cortez saying he was snooping around Bishops room the night of the fire and that his Dad gave the Sheriff his phone records. Bishop thinks that she’s fucking with him, but she’s not. They are determined to implicate him, and they will open up walls if they have to. She’s like make sure there is nothing to hide.
That’s going to be a problem, because that’s all Bishop has is things to hide.
Nat and Dodge get their tickets for that nights challenge, and Nat grabs Heathers. The final four will be decided. Dodge is in the lead. They are both excited.
Heather is off on her own, talking to Bishop. They admit to each other that they really like each other and I know that many people join me in saying it is about damn time. Like we’ve all been waiting.
Leela is with Hunt, they keep it a secret cause her parents are so strict. His Dad owns the apartment building and he used to send Bishop around for rent and when they started falling behind he started helping her out. He swore he wouldn’t tell anyone about it. But it wasn’t what it looked like. But then she said that she didn’t care. And she never thought of him like that. But he thinks of her like that all the time.
Look Bishop, I would like to believe you but I believe you as much as I believe Natalie, and I don’t believe a thing she says at all.
THE LIES OUR PARENTS TELL
When Heather is told that something is wrong with Lily, her world stops to be there for her sister. And I admire that about her. She heads home immediately to make sure that her sister is okay.
Lily accidentally threw away Beau’s cigarettes and when he saw it, he screamed at her. She was terrified. So Heather heads back to her house to see what is happened. She finds her Mom and Beau doing coke. Her Mom doesn’t even know that Lily is gone.
And Heather, well, she’s had enough. She throws the drugs and Beau goes straight up psycho. He throws Heather against the wall, choking her. He slaps her Mom down and while I think her Mom is shit, I have to admit I cheered when she came to her damn senses and was there for her daughter. When she hit Beau with the bottle, I was like thank God she still cares about her kids.
When she told Heather to get out and took Beau’s crazy – I was like what the actual fuck is this woman thinking. But she protected her kids and that is what matters.
Heather may be supposed to be at a challenge, but she’s where it matters – there for her sister. And that’s the most important thing. She gets Lily and leaves. Lily may be scared, but Heather won’t let anything happen to her.
BLINDFOLDS AND ESCAPES
Langley tracks down Cole, the person that had played in the game, but Hunt had said left. He’s been in Corpus, and was able to tell her that the person who replaced him was a Shay O’Reilly. Hunt had told her that Cole skipped town cause he met a girl, but Cole says he dropped out of the game because he got a payout from Luke Hall.
Lies always come to the surface people. Always.
Langley goes to talk to Shawna and finds out so much information. The Russian roulette – the game wasn’t supposed to be fake. Jimmy had told her that t he pistol was supposed to be a training pistol that shoots air. And Jimmy would have known that because he was a judge. Hunt Kenny was playing with them (remember he said he hadn’t played). Jimmy and Shawna were only there to loose.
Judges are allowed to play as long as they don’t go all the way. She was the second judge that plated. And the game was supposed to have ended. She said that when Abby died her and Jimmy decided that they weren’t gonna pick their replacement.
Something happened and my money is on Luke Hall making it continue.
That nights challenge, there are blindfolds involved and Natalie is trying to get ahold of Heather, and as a person I can appreciate that she’s being kind to her friend. But still don’t trust her. Hopefully Heather can use her one immunity for this, because she’s not there.
The rest of the players though, they are blindfolded and all we see is bright lights. What happens next… who knows.
- My heart breaks for Dodge knowing his Dad hung himself and it explains why he cut that dummy down with a quickness.
- Dana’s whole story – every time we learn something I feel worse and worse for her.
- Ray looking at Heathers Instagram… he’s so into her. I blame Natalie for making Heather think the worst.
- What the fuck did Bishop bury and why is Sarah following him?