It’s been 366 days since Sam’s last sip of alcohol. I don’t know about you all, but I clapped when watching it. So excited for her and so proud.
Fully aware that I am talking about a fictional character but I don’t care. I care that Sam is someone that I am invested in her recovery and happiness. And that my friends, is the sign of a good show. When you are so invested in the characters that you look forward to every episode, celebrate their wins and cry when they are down. And not everyone or everything is going to make you feel that way.
Sam is being celebrated for her year of sobriety. She’s thankful to everyone who has made a difference in her life and has been there for her. She just wishes that her Dad could be there to see it.
And at that point, one can’t help but notice that her Mom is no where to be found. But we’ll get there.
Because right now it has been a year, and that means that our ship can finally set sail. YES! Sam and James can be together and those two are wasting no time to get it in.
Sam is thrilled, but something seems off about James. He has to leave – says that investors are in town. And for a bit, I want to believe him. But I am not sure what the shift is in James.
There are a lot of times where he seems like he’s this strong man and nothing gets to him, but I also realize that he doesn’t really open up a lot. And maybe that’s why the episode before this one was necessary, because we don’t know James.
We know Sam wants to be with James, but how does he deal with that? How does he deal with anything?
Brit and Joel. He just seems to be the biggest idiot, but also these two do not know how to communicate. I am not saying that they are not in love, but I am also saying that just because you love someone doesn’t mean that you are meant to be with that person.
Joel bought a lot without conferring with Brit. He was like why is it that we would buy a home when I can build one? That’s what I do. Well, first of all you don’t do that without talking to your significant other.
It’s not shocking that Brit would be upset, but it’s also not shocking that Joel would be upset when he finds out that she applied for a fellowship in Los Angeles.
If these two are keeping all of these secrets already, what is going to happen when they get married? Should they be getting married?
I mean, correct me if I am wrong, but isn’t communication a big part of marriage?
We all know that Carol isn’t my favorite, but it’s because everything is about her to her and well, life isn’t all about her.
It’s even about her when Sam tries to make her amends. She doesn’t feel emotionally ready, and doesn’t have time for a “thing” so she wants to schedule it. It’s like woman please! Your daughter is trying to talk to you. She’s trying to open up to you. Sam is trying to make things right between the two of them and Carol isn’t allowing her to.
Everything is about Carol all the time. At least to Carol. She even makes dispersing Sam’s Dads ashes about herself. She doesn’t worry about Sams feelings and tricks her into going to disperse them. The thing that I wonder is does Carol realize how she treats her daughter? I don’t doubt that she loves her, but her actions are all questionable.
Now, I have never dispersed of ashes, but why are they sticking their hands in the urn to throw them out?
When Sam starts to make her amends, Carol wants to keep letting her off the hook, but Sam wants that not to happen. The two of them won’t see eye to eye on how to handle things, but I do think Carol needs to learn more about recovery in order to be a better mom to Sam.
Like springing shit on her is probably not the best idea. The casual way that she tells Sam that Bob is moving in, but that she can stay, that she wants her to stay. But Sam says that it’s her time to go.
And hey, I am all for Sam moving forward in her life.
DEALING WITH DISAPPOINTMENT
The MVP of this show is now and will always be Felicia. She’s the funniest and the kindest and is there for everyone. Even Brit when she shows up.
Brit wants drugs. Anyone else confused? Cause I sure as fuck am. I get it – she’s always got her shit together and she’s never not at the top of her game. But her going to Felicia. That definitely wasn’t on my bingo card.
Felicia going off on her and telling her that she’s a Mom, that she doesn’t have a drug dealer and putting Brit in her place – well that was epic. But what was even more epic was that she was joking and she just wanted to see her squirm.
But seeing them do drugs together – with the drug dealer – I couldn’t help but laugh. It made my stomach hurt how hard I was laughing. It was nice to see the side of Brit that could let go, the side of her that could laugh and see the world as this place where she could just let go.
But in the same breathe, I wonder what it means. Why? Because she asked if she should get married. I know that doubts come out all the time, but because I don’t think they should be getting married.
But the biggest concern that I have isn’t Brit and Joel – it’s James. Why? Because James is at the bar that Joel is. James is at the bar and he’s drinking. He has a hard time taking life going good. He has fallen off the wagon and I am scared for him.
I am scared for him because I don’t want to see him screw up his life. I don’t want to see him make choices that will hurt him or those around him. James is a good man, but him drinking…
I am scared.
And with one episode left, I am not happy that I can pretty much tell that a cliffhanger is coming and I am gonna need assurances of a season 2 soon.