Sometimes watching a show, you find that even though the ending is someones happy ending, it leaves you feeling more unfulfilled than you thought that it would. It’s kinda this odd feeling when you start watching a show and you think that you have an endgame in mind, but when it reaches that point, you wonder if you were wrong.
From the beginning of Never Have I Ever, I have wanted nothing more than Paxton and Devi to end up together. I wanted it, because I firmly believed it’s what Devi wanted. But when I sit here and make my own mental list of Pros and Cons of Paxton, I don’t think that I will ever get past what he did in this episode, regardless if he corrected himself in the end.
We know that Devi and Paxton have been hooking up in her room. We know that he called her “pal” in public.
That night he shows up at Devi’s house and tells her that he was sorry that was in a hurry. She tells him that she thinks he’s embarrassed by her. He says that he doesn’t like PDA or labels.
RED FLAG! He’s full of shit. He legitimately is full of shit. And he looks at her and she believes him because this is Devi and we all know that she wants to be loved and cared for.
And now we also know that he can be a jerk, but this episode takes the cake.
In high school, we all worry too much about what people think of us. We worry about our friends and their thoughts, a lot of time putting ourselves aside. But what Paxton did, was he made Devi feel ashamed of herself and for that – I have no forgiveness.
But I digress. Let me step off my soap box for a second and tell you what happened.
It’s time for the winter dance, and Fabiola is feeling a little awkward about all the things that she has to do to become Cricket Queen. She knows it’s important to her and Eve, but so is robotics club and continuously having to miss robotics club.
Devi and Eleanor are doing everything that they can for Eleanor and she just feels out of place. This isn’t comfortable for her, but you can tell she’s trying.
Devi tells the two that she may be dating Paxton again. Both of them are in shock and upset that she didn’t tell them. But when Devi asks Paxton to the winter dance (after some solid advice from Aneesa – you can’t always wait for the guy) he humiliates her. Like she’s good enough to make out with at night, but seeing her in the light of day is wrong?
Bitch please, get over yourself Paxton.
Devi went out of her comfort zone for Paxton a million times over. He treated her like shit, as if she was less than. She’s not. No, I am not saying that Devi is perfect, but she didn’t set out to publicly humiliate him. He, however, in my opinion did. When his friends laughed at her and he just stood there – yes, I can tell that he felt bad, but I also could tell that he wasn’t going to do anything about it.
Ben sees the whole thing and follows Devi into the bathroom, where Devi is crying. The thing about Ben, yes, he’s not my favorite, but he loves her. He wants to be a good guy. He wants for Devi to see that she deserves more but I hate to be the one that says this – she’s not gonna see that.
A teenage girl is set on her immediate heartbreak. Hell, I only saw that my ex didn’t deserve me six years after we broke up
And when Paxton shows up that night at her house, he apologizes. But rather than taking responsibility for himself, he brings up that she humiliated him and so this isn’t easy for him. He wants to keep things secret and that is the only way that they can be together. Devi agrees and for real – I yelled at the screen and was like DEVI DON’T!
But like a lot of things in Devi’s life, what it takes is her Dad. He Dad comes to her in a dream and gives her solid advice on what she should or shouldn’t do. And she realizes she doesn’t want to be, nor does she need to be, anyones secret.
She tells Paxton and he’s not going to budge. But Devi isn’t either. She’s found a way to stand up for herself and find her worth and I think it’s one of the most beautiful moments we’ve seen. Because Devi needs to realize her worth. She needs to believe in herself more.
Finding yourself isn’t easy. But Devi and Eleanor are doing a great job of progressing. I didn’t think that seeing Fabiola break down would break my heart so much but it did. She’d been relieved of her position as captain of the robotics club and they had reprogrammed her robot to be gross. She breaks down and she just tells her friends she wants to be herself.
The thing is that Eleanor and Devi only want to her to be is herself.
We’re all going through things at all times and Fabiola has been trying to fit into a mold that she really doesn’t fit in, because it wasn’t her. She needed to be reminded of who she was and why that’s important.
And she needed to realize using her voice was okay. It was welcomed.
When she and Eve win Cricket Queen and Queen, she tells Eve that she’s not this person her friends are, but this is who she is and Eve is very accepting of that. Fabiola realizes that who she is – is good enough.
And I love that.
Devi decides that she’s going to leave and on the way out gets hit by a car. That driver is Paxton. He’s worried he hurt her, but she just wants to know why he’s there. It finally comes out that he’s there for her.
I wish that she would see he’s messed up so much and she deserves better, but she kisses him and walks in with him. Everyone is looking at them and they look happy and loving together. I am glad that Devi is happy, but I also think that this is fleeting and I don’t believe that it will last.
BUT to throw a wrench in everything, Ben makes a comment about them and Eleanor tells him it hasn’t always been Paxton. It was Ben, but the talked her out of it. Ben is in a state of shock.
And that’s how it ends. Was not happy.
But the other part of the story that you need to know – Kamala is having dinner at her home, with the family and her boyfriends family. She’s not ready for an engagement, but she knows it is coming. And so when she gets the chance she sneaks out to the school and goes to karaoke with the teachers.
So many cliffhangers, so little time. Need a season 3 now Netflix!
