We’re back! After the review of episode 9, we review Lucifer 5×10 “Bloody Celestial Karaoke Jam,” the musical episode. I must say that I didn’t expect to like it, because I like musicals but not musical episodes. I was never so glad to be wrong. I loved this episode because it has incredible emotional depth, it exposes all of Lucifer’s problems, it moves us, makes us laugh, cry, and also fixes some problems we had with episode 9.
Here we go!
We started Lucifer 5×10 “Bloody Celestial Karaoke Jam” as a continuation of episode 9 and that infamous fountain scene. We all were left with our souls in suspense trying to guess where that left Deckerstar … and here is the answer.
There’s something … weird about them. As if there is a wall between them now. Lucifer didn’t expect Chloe would want him by her side now and she wasn’t sure he would go to her. But there they are. Together. Because they will always find their way to each other. They will always find each other. That’s what soulmates do.
If that’s not love, what is? That is why Chloe is convinced that it is impossible that Lucifer cannot love. He proved it to her every day for years. Every. Day. And not just to her. She sees him. Chloe sees Lucifer and the way he behaves with Linda, with Amenadiel, with Charlie, with Maze, with his family, even with Dan. He always does the right thing, he would never hurt them and would even give his life for each one of them. He would sacrifice himself for each of them. In fact, he already has it several times. Because he loves them.
Of course Lucifer is capable of love, of course he loves her. She just needs him to realize this. And there is Chloe’s courage, this courage to stand here, in front of the love of her life and to be able to rationalize those words that hurt her so much, to see beyond that, beyond the pain, beyond the broken pieces, to deny that words. To believe in him and fight for them, it makes my hair stand on end and it gives me chills. She moves me to tears.
“You’re a terrible father.” SAY IT, QUEEN! Seeing Chloe defend Lucifer like this, tooth and nail has been like: “I LOVE YOU, BABY, YOU ROCK!” Chloe doesn’t care that the person in front of her is God. To her he is just the terrible father who harmed Lucifer in a way that will never completely go away, who made him feel worthless and despise himself.
For her, he is the person who made the love of her life suffer. So she makes it clear that she doesn’t like him because whoever hurts Lucifer hurts her. And she can’t stand that he has controlled him so much, that he has hurt him (because Chloe always knew that Lucifer was damaged) and that gift business…well, she’s mad for that too.
I love watching Chloe like this, a queen as only can be, and making it clear to God himself that she doesn’t take shit from anyone and less from him. I love her. Period.
“He will be watching me.” A key moment within this episode. As always, the case of the week is intimately related to what happens in Lucifer’s life and the way in which he perceives his father is illuminating. He feels like his father is controlling his life, always watching, always … judging. Without him ever being able to become who his father expects him to be.
But it’s even more illuminating what Lucifer tells Chloe about that teenager they are interrogating. He is destined to always be broken, he will not be able to live like a normal person or love like a normal person. Both know that Lucifer is not talking about that teenager, but about himself. He is confessing to Chloe how he feels about himself. As if there is something in him that is so broken that it is impossible to fix it, to glue the pieces together … and that prevents him from even loving.
So the only solution is to ignore the problem, but that’s not so. Chloe is right there and the solution is to fix the problem, not avoid it. Avoiding problems is useless. If Lucifer wants to fix what was broken so long ago, he must go to the root: his father.
And here he is. Here’s the explanation we needed after episode 9. All here. Lucifer 5×10 “Bloody Celestial Karaoke Jam” showed us how Lucifer came to the conclusion that if he said those words to Chloe he would not really mean it. I still think that episode 9 should have given us that explanation, but I really appreciate that Lucifer 5×10 “Bloody Celestial Karaoke Jam” did it and fixed all the problems I had with that scene.
Well, I hope Lucifer pays Linda a million to take the whole family to her office. Although I don’t think that’s enough. Poor Linda, now even God sits on her couch. It was hilarious and super fun to watch this little father-son fight and how Linda vented about Amenadiel here too, almost like it was group therapy. More of these, please.
But it was also an important and quite serious scene. Lucifer believes that he can never become the man his father wants and needs him to be, that he will never make him proud or love him, whatever he does, without realizing that who sets such standards, who thinks he should be more than he already is…is himself.
As for God, well, he wasn’t a good father and that is clear … but he doesn’t know how to be a good one either. He hopes that Lucifer will guide him as he tries to find out for himself what his son needs from him, because he’s been screaming from the rooftops since he appeared on Earth.
“I have faith in you”. Didn’t those words kill you? Goddess, if you loved Chloe Decker before, this episode is like, “Didn’t you think you could love her more? Hold my beer.” Chloe is the strong one here. Lucifer feels more and more vulnerable, more and more incapable of fixing his problems and being the person that Chloe deserves, that can love her as she deserves.
And Chloe is there, having faith in him, in them. When Lucifer is about to give up, she just grabs him tight and hugs him, ready to be strong for both of them, to fight for both of them. And it’s so precious that it hurts. Because it hurts like hell.
It is tearing her apart to see how she is at a point where her whole heart, her whole soul is exposed to Lucifer, just wide open for him and he just moves further and further away from her, imposes walls and is not capable of realizing that he doesn’t need to be someone else, that she loves him for who he is, damaged parts, broken parts and all.
Is killing her to see that Lucifer didn’t take her heart in one of his hands and take care of it but that he, unwittingly, is crushing it more and more, in a slow and painful death. And nobody notices. Chloe can’t vent to anyone, or yell at anyone what she’s feeling.
She has to be so focused on being strong for both of them so that their wonderful relationship doesn’t collapse that she can’t take care of herself and her heart is breaking to pieces. She can’t show Lucifer that she’s hurting too, she can’t afford that, not now that he needs her to be strong, that their relationship needs her to be strong for both of them. Chloe doesn’t allow herself to cry for her own heart, for the future that she feels is slipping away from her.
You have to have a lot of courage to do that. So that the well-being of your loved one is the most important, even when your own heart falls apart. If anyone ever doubts Chloe’s love for Lucifer, show them this. This part where she somehow sacrifices herself for him.
And someone notices everything. Trixie is no longer a little girl and she is much more aware of what is going on than Chloe thinks. She doesn’t know the details but she does know that Chloe is hurting … for Lucifer. Something happened between them that made her mother lose that spark, that joy.
She is still her but Trixie feels like she is more and more … empty. It’s just small details. The sparkle in her eyes faded, she doesn’t smile that often anymore … but Trixie notices them. And she is willing to fight and protect her mother. No matter what.
I confess that watching this song with Deckerstar images made me cry non-stop. I love them so much … even when they make me suffer like this.
The last scene. If there is any scene that just bends you in two and makes you cry like a baby in Lucifer 5×10 “Bloody Celestial Karaoke Jam” it’s the last scene. It’s just gold. It’s all of Lucifer’s problems, all of his trauma, his damaged soul, exposed.
It is ironic that physically Lucifer is invulnerable but emotionally he is so vulnerable. He must pretend that everything is fine, that nothing affects him … but it does. So when he was vulnerable with Chloe, for him it was like … like a gift. He was no longer alone surrounded by walls. Now he had a partner, someone who understood him, someone he let into his stronghold, someone willing to stay with him there.
But that also got messed up.
And he cries, Lucifer cries like a child, as he has never allowed himself to cry. And we cry with him. God understands everything here. At last he understands. His son … his son is so full of light, he gives so much light and wants to give so much more…that light blinds him. He is able to see everyone, to know how they are in their heart and to love them with everything he has. But he is not able to see himself. He is not capable of loving himself.
God is largely to blame for this, he was not a good father. He didn’t show his son that he loved him, that he was proud of him, whatever his decisions were or what he was like. That made Lucifer always feel that he was not loved and that he had to fight to deserve that love. And God is sorry that that was so, he is sorry that Lucifer feels that way. And he understands why Lucifer is angry.
This is a key because Lucifer sees through those words or believes that he does. He misinterprets what his father is telling him, but his father is apologizing and accepting mistakes just … it’s not all his fault.
“I can’t fix you, Lucifer.” Here we come to the turning point. The root of Lucifer’s problem is his father and that lack of affection but God cannot fix him. It must be Lucifer who breaks the cycle, who learns what love is, who learns to love himself and understands that he is enough and that he is loved and that he deserves that love. Because God didn’t screw up his only chance to be happy, Lucifer was the one who did.
And he must fight to be able to accept and love himself because only then will he understand that Chloe’s love is sincere and it is for him, that she loves him with all his imperfections, flaws and damaged parts and that he doesn’t need to be someone else to deserve that love. That is Lucifer’s journey in this 5B.
Our Maze, on the other hand, is struggling with what God told her and shows herself “as she is” to prove to herself and him that there is nothing good in her. But there is. Although she appears to be evil and enjoys torture, that is not the only thing she is. No longer. She has shadows but she also has a lot of light, a light that grew on the ground and became stronger and stronger. Maze is much more “human” and therefore perfect in her imperfection than she thinks. Until she is able to see herself … she will not understand what God meant.
Special mention to Dan’s reaction to God and the truth about Charlotte. Dan, you got into a good one. A tip: take the bottle of tequila directly, a shot is not enough with this heavenly family. And Amenadiel was crowned the clumsiest man in this episode. Facepalm for him.
And here ends our Lucifer 5×10 “Bloody Celestial Karaoke Jam” review. We will be back tomorrow with a new one!