Her’s the thing, having family day feels so strange. Having lost people in my life, having to experience the pain and then knowing that their conscious is there and all of the memories – how does one deal with that? I feel like it would just be painful after each and every moment.
It feels like a lot.
But then again, when you know that person that you lost has been uploaded, is it the same? I feel like you may set that expectation with yourself and know that they are still there. But I mean, it just made me think a lot. Upload makes me think.
Matt, Nora, and Ivan are on a mission and it’s one that I can’t see Nora ever being able to come to terms with.
The arrive at the Sunny Purchase School Of Biomedicine, a place that is growing clones of all of the people that uploaded. Their mission is to cut power to the clones, which, I don’t think that Nora can live with, because it feels like they are murdering people.
She tries to convince them that they shouldn’t punish the uploads, but Matt and Ivan aren’t listening. Really not sure as to why they are so stupid and so anti everything, but I am not trying to be an asshole, just cause you’re rich doesn’t mean that they are dicks.
I mean doesn’t mean they aren’t either.
Back at Lake View, its family day and Nathan’s mom and niece are showing up. He tells Ingrid that she can hang out with them and she’s ecstatic. Like legitimately I have never seen her so happy. But one has to wonder, does she understand that she’s trying to hard.
I know that Ingrid wants nothing more than for Nathan to love her, but she’s such a miserable human. And I get it. I totally get it. Why? Because I am the same way, I react in anger, even though I shouldn’t. It’s the way that I know how to express emotions. It’s not healthy and I get that. But it is what it is.
I do feel sorry for Ingrid, because I don’t think she wants to be the bitch that she is, but I think that it’s how she deals with things, because she’s never be shown love. She thinks love is chaos and anger. But she still has the want to be loved and appreciated.
And she’s not.
But then, while they are out celebrating family day, Nathan sees Nora and thinks that it’s still Tinsley. He goes to say hi, and Nora tells him that she’s back. It’s such an awkward encounter between the two of them, that I can’t help but feel for them. They both love each other, so very much. But hey, one is alive and one is dead and that is a huge issue.
Seeing Nathan and his pain and happiness with seeing Nora – ugh. My heart. These two are so perfect and Nora trying to distance herself – I hated. She doesn’t want to do that. You can see that. But she’s making it known that she can’t.
And Nathan’s making it known that he still wants to protect her.
Seeing Nora brought him back to realizing what he wants. But it also makes Ingrid hella jealous, which leads her to therapy and her telling her therapist that she’s shit. But is she shit because she tells Ingrid the things that she doesn’t want to hear?
Ingrid wants one of the new prototykes and feels like it will bond her and Nathan. She wants him to be open to the idea of forever. I worry that she doesn’t really realize he’s dead.
And she’s alive.
Matteo meets Nora by the Grey Zone and wants her to plant a bug. This bug could harm all the uploads and what he’s missing is that Nora cares about these uploads. However, he manipulates her and tells her that even her Dad doesn’t think that she will be able to plant the virus.
Um, fuck you Matteo. That’s some bullshit knowing how she feels about her Dad and using him against her is an all new low for you. It makes her feel like she has no choice.
Nora is torn between both worlds and we can all see that she’s torn as she sets the virus down. It’s no surprise that she wants to fix it as quickly as possible. Everyone seems to underestimate Nora, including Nora. It’s as if she doesn’t see her own worth and that saddens me.
Nora has a lot of choices to make, but somehow I feel like the choices that she will make will change everything.
- Aeesha continues to be one of our favorites as she’s just hilarious. But girl has some feelings for Luke she needs to come to terms with
- Finding out more about Luke was long overdue
- Nathan agreeing to the possibility of a prototyke – shocked
- Ingrid has lost her damn mind
- Tinsley may be one of my faves this season. Spread that positivity.