In life, one of the hardest things to do is to speak your mind. Speaking your mind means that you run the risk of being judged, but in the same breath, holding everything in does the same.
There isn’t a person in this episode that doesn’t need to reclaim power in some way. And the best way to do that is to speak and use their words.
And at the same time Jules, Stella, Madison, and Izzy all need to find themselves.
And that isn’t easy.
Jules is supposed to have Wes over for drinks and probably a roll in the sack. But as she pours a glass of wine for both of them, she gets a call. He’s not able to come over, because the girlfriend (he claims ex, but I have to say I am not buying it) has a spider crawl in her cast.
You’ve got to be kidding me.
Jules doesn’t want to seem clingy or you know as if she’s bothered by the whole situation, so she acts very matter of fact. But it is bothering her.
Yet, she’s willing to do anything to change her life around for him, but one has to wonder if he ever going to do the same. Wes seems to want everything to go his way, but I can not understand for the life of me how he thinks that everyone is always just going to wait around for him.
Jules is allowed to be disappointed that he’s not there, but also she’s allowed to put herself first. Part of me thinks that Jules is insecure so she settles, not seeing that she doesn’t have to. She’s worth more than that.
But Jules has to see that for herself. The more that she does see that the more she will grow.
When she takes on the task of handing off a guitar for Izzy, she will see that she’s attractive to other people. The man is under the name Fender with the contact that Izzy gave her, but we knows what we need to know when he shows up. He’s hot, he’s Australian, and there is is enough sexual tension between the two of them to know they’re gonna work out.
At least we hope.
STELLA WANTS TO BE ON TOP
Stella is used to being the alpha in life – in any part of her life. She’s not used to people not looking to her to know all, be all, and be intimidated by her.
But Stella isn’t that way at the bar. The contractor isn’t listening, Liv isn’t talking about what happened between them, but Liv is talking to everyone else and solving issues.
Stella wants to be the one with the big dick energy, which hey, ok. But at the end of the day, she’s gotta be open to compromise too.
Taking her friends to get the sex shop, to get literal big dick energy though was something that I didn’t see coming. Jules being uncomfortable in this whole situation made me laugh a little, because we’ve all been there, and also taking in Stella’s energy would be a lot.
Stella has to do the one thing that she’s not good at – communicate. She’s gotta open her mouth and tell Liv like it is. She likes her, that’s obvious. But if she doesn’t tell her what she needs, it won’t work.
The two finally talking shit out is what was needed. We applaud this growth, Stella.
IZZY AND SPEAKING UP
Izzy wanted more responsibility and she got it. Thought it may not be what she wanted.
Celeste is driving her insane. She’s basically made Izzy feel overwhelmed and used and this wasn’t the responsibility that she wanted. She doesn’t know what is happening or why Celeste is being so mean to her, but she’s taking it.
The thing about Izzy is that she doesn’t speak up a lot so seeing her speak up is applauded. Or at least gathering the courage to. Because when she finally is going to speak up, Celeste tells her that she knows she has been hard on her. She apologizes and lets Izzy know that she appreciates it.
And then tells Izzy the truth.
She’s having a hard time, because today would have been her and Colin’s 10 year anniversary and instead of them being together, they are getting divorced and he’s trying to take her for everything she has.
And that’s a lot to deal with.
Where Izzy has the chance to walk away at the moment, she doesn’t. She stays there and doesn’t leave Celeste alone, because she knows she needs someone right then and there.
For the first time, Celeste seems human to me. She’s so less robotic and callus. She is guarded for a reason and we can understand it here. She doesn’t want to feel the pain of life and none of us can judge her for that.
Because ultimately, we’re all the same way.
What we also get in this moment is seeing how special Izzy is. She’s loyal and full of heart.
We can’t ask for a better friend than that.
FENDER AND THE NIGHT OUT
Jules impressed us this episode, because she got her shit together and saw that she was capable of taking control of her life and her heart. She gathers the courage to ask the man who came to get the guitar out.
And he’s all for it. But the intention behind Jules doing this is wrong. She wants to be able to make Wes jealous. Hell, when she gets to the club to see Fender play, she posts a thirst trap on social media.
Maybe I’d be one to criticize that, but we’ve all done it. We’ve all wanted someone to see what they are missing.
Happy that Jules brought Madison with her, but would have loved if it was someone that went along with her. It just feels a little self serving for Madison, but to be real, I feel like Madison is a lot about herself these days.
And that night – she’s still about that. The girls run into a girl that they went to college with, who is now a successful A&R rep and Madison ditches Jules to go be with her. Sure, I am all for getting ahead, but I am also not one for selling out your friends or forgetting them.
Jules can’t let go of Wes and live in the moment, ultimately. When he calls to get in her head, she answers, even though she’s with Fender. Jules, do better. Think better. Don’t let a man or anyone get into your head that much. She and Fender have a good time, but they part ways and I am just unsure of how this will play out.
Sure, Madison going off with Ruby (The A&R woman), we get it. It’s a chance for her build herself and career. But I don’t like the whole texting, I am leaving you kinda thing.
These girls are always there for each other, but part of me feels like Stella, Jules, Madison, and Izzy are on different pages.
And as sad as it sounds, I am okay with that.
Because falling apart means you fall back together and that can be a beautiful journey.